~frostedideals

I've been forced to make some big decisions this summer. a few interpersonal things, a few educational things, and a few medium based things.

First, I got rid of some bad vibes in my life. Mostly people with bad vibes. Lost Boy and I are no longer friends. I've given up on Christen. and I'm distancing myself from the less productive people I know. I don't need any social drama interfering with my life anymore. I'm also getting off of this "Maybe I should try to date again" kick. I'm over it. I don't have time for it. Being single is better for me and I'm okay with that. It's time to hold out for something real.

Second, I decided to put my efforts into getting into a real college. HCC is nice but it's far from the end of my educational story. I want to go to PCAD. I always kinda knew I wanted to go but I never felt prepared. I feel I can do it now. I'm going to their next open house and finding out what classes I can get out of the way at HCC so I can transfer to PCAD in a year, hopefully.

Third, I'm going to work on moving out of my parents house. I've gotten a lot of help from my mother and she's really been there for me but it's time I get my act together. This goes hand in hand with going to PCAD. I'm going to move to Lancaster.

Forth, It's time to get real and start working with digital. I love my manual/darkroom stuff so much but it's no longer viable in todays market. And it's no longer easy on the wallet. It's just a fact of this modern world. I've gotten into this digital darkroom concept a bit more. I will still work with film BUT I will be scanning my negatives and doing everything on the computer from now on. I'm doing this begrudgingly but oh well. Can't win em all. I'm still going to play with the old techniques and work on building cameras because I feel it's very important to be hands on and know photography inside and out and not be a one trick pony. I will still master the pinhole and make it my slave-bitch but I'm going to take the time I used to spend in the darkroom and put that towards learning Photoshop and that shit. *sigh*

Fifth, I can't keep conforming to the pressures around me anymore. I've been trying to do all the things all these "professionals" advise me to do but I simply can't live my life this way. I'm going to get my ass off probation and I'm going to do the things I'm required to do. But I'm going to cling to my spirit and creativity that makes me me and stop shoving it down inside to appease these assholes. I will not kill myself any longer!

I'm submitting some of my work to Shots magazine.

pray for me.

Instant Art - just add Tits!

so my work has been a bit lacking lately. I'm working up the energy to re-shoot my last project. It's still a work in progress. I got some good feedback from my teacher about how it turned out and he pretty much confirmed my doubts - too straight forward, spell-it-out for them, and I need to remove the poems from the actual image.

I still really like how the first step turned out. but there's so much more that i want to do with it. now that I've got this new Holga i'm gonna try to shoot the project with 120 and make larger prints. i think the Holga will give me some of the effect i'm looking for.

right now i'm working on some digital stuff. i'm really never impressed with digi photos but I'm trying to see past that tech shit and make it work. Taking digital imaging next semester might improve my view of th medium.. or drive me insane. who knows.

I've made sure to keep printing despite all the crap and lack of time. re-hashing some old work. printing stuff i never got around to. improving some stuff i like before but never fully finished. once i get m life in order the re-shooting will commence.

money is always an issue.

put up a new series from my photo 2 final.

no comments... which is odd cuz I usually get a few when I post new things.

fuckers. hehe